Firm in my decision

Yesterday I spent the day with a house full of children.

Yesterday confirmed my decision that I do not want children.

Being 30 years old, I always get asked if I'm married or have children. After I answer both with a firm "No" I sometimes feel a little bit judged. It seems that people, "people" meaning "society" expects that I should have both by this time. I have a boyfriend and every time I am with family, I am always asked if I'm going to get married. My honest answer is also no. I'm completely okay with this decision. I do not feel compelled to give in to the societal norm.

Am I completely against marriage? I don't know. I guess I'm against what it is supposed to mean, that I finally have my life together and I'm complete in some way. But I can have those things without the sanctity of marriage, which let's be real right now, isn't very sanctimonious in these days.

Although I'm comfortable with never getting married or having children, I am not at all comfortable with people telling me "You'll change your mind." Maybe I will, maybe I won't. I don't ask anyone if they regret having their children and ask if they've changed their mind, because that would be unacceptable. So let's just agree to accept each other's decisions. Mmmkay?

I have freedom to do what I want. I make decisions based on what I want and I can buy a pair of shoes without worrying if I need to get my children shoes first. Yes, it's selfish, and I can fully admit that. I am not selfish with my love or affection with people, and that makes me feel okay about this aspect of myself.

I respect anyone who is married and has children and is happy with their lives. Actually, I'm in full support of having children and raising them to do great things in this world. I'm not sure that's why everyone does it, though, and, therefore, I don't need judgement from them.

I am okay with where I am in my life. It might be a different path from yours, but it's a good one for me. If I change my mind one day, it's because I wanted to, not because I felt like I had to. And if I don't change my mind...I'm going on lots of vacations.

I can't BE ANYMORE THANKFUL FOR MY SHOES right now.

Sara <3

So What! Wednesday

So what if my first blog post is on a Wednesday?! I have to start somewhere and this seems like as best a place as any other. It serves as a first post but in an easier format than a regular blog post. Yeah, I'm totally taking the easy way out. Sometimes I do that. Who doesn't want things to be easy? I'm not saying I avoid things that are hard. I'm just saying if there is an easier way to do it, I will do it that way and then giggle about how smart I am. If you like the hard way, we might not be able to be friends. I mean, I won't hate you but you probably won't like my fresh-baked, straight out of the box mix, cupcakes.  So what if I ate hummus, pasta and meatballs and cheesecake today? Sure, my pants will be angry about it tomorrow. But I sure enjoyed it today. I'm also probably going to regret it tomorrow. Yeah, I regret stupid things like that sometimes. So what? Don't we all? Damn, I kind of regret it now because I know I have to go to Zumba tomorrow and I'm already feeling lazy about it. I also kind of want more hummus. So what? I'm still a rockstar.... Sorry, every time I type that, P!nk comes to mind and it takes over. So what if I didn't wash my hair today? The curse of curly hair! And yes, I think it is a total curse. I can't have cute haircuts because they are all for straight hair or for people with curly hair who actually take the time to straighten their hair. From the immortal words of Sweet Brown, "ain't nobody got time fo dat." And I sure 'nuff don't. Plus, it's been snowing/raining/hailing/stealing my soul outside in this dreary weather so even if I took the time, it would get funky within 30 seconds outside. So I don't wash my hair every day. If I'm suuuuper lucky, I can hold off for 2 days. Okay, by the end of that time it gets a little ferocious but by then I'm already home and the only witness is my dog, Katie. And if she's judging me, I don't know about it.  I can't BELIEVE I MADE MY FIRST BLOG POST right now, Sara <3