Firm in my decision

Yesterday I spent the day with a house full of children.

Yesterday confirmed my decision that I do not want children.

Being 30 years old, I always get asked if I'm married or have children. After I answer both with a firm "No" I sometimes feel a little bit judged. It seems that people, "people" meaning "society" expects that I should have both by this time. I have a boyfriend and every time I am with family, I am always asked if I'm going to get married. My honest answer is also no. I'm completely okay with this decision. I do not feel compelled to give in to the societal norm.

Am I completely against marriage? I don't know. I guess I'm against what it is supposed to mean, that I finally have my life together and I'm complete in some way. But I can have those things without the sanctity of marriage, which let's be real right now, isn't very sanctimonious in these days.

Although I'm comfortable with never getting married or having children, I am not at all comfortable with people telling me "You'll change your mind." Maybe I will, maybe I won't. I don't ask anyone if they regret having their children and ask if they've changed their mind, because that would be unacceptable. So let's just agree to accept each other's decisions. Mmmkay?

I have freedom to do what I want. I make decisions based on what I want and I can buy a pair of shoes without worrying if I need to get my children shoes first. Yes, it's selfish, and I can fully admit that. I am not selfish with my love or affection with people, and that makes me feel okay about this aspect of myself.

I respect anyone who is married and has children and is happy with their lives. Actually, I'm in full support of having children and raising them to do great things in this world. I'm not sure that's why everyone does it, though, and, therefore, I don't need judgement from them.

I am okay with where I am in my life. It might be a different path from yours, but it's a good one for me. If I change my mind one day, it's because I wanted to, not because I felt like I had to. And if I don't change my mind...I'm going on lots of vacations.

I can't BE ANYMORE THANKFUL FOR MY SHOES right now.

Sara <3